Things to talk in more depth about

1. The Peace Corps of course!! I'm reading up on Guyana and what I'll be doing, so that y'all will be informed about where I'll be and what I'll be doing. 2. My current boy issue.3. Ask me about Jr.'s girlfriend's graduation.

What's been going on lately:
On Saturday the City Parks and Rec Dept hosted "Holiday in the Park." At the rec center where I work, they had bingo, arts and crafts, and snacks. When the kids first got there they each received 2 tickets. If they got bingo they turned in a ticket and received a prize; therefore, the kids had a chance at winning 2 prizes. And, they played until everyone got at least one prize. Chinyere won a CD player, and my little cousins won a plug in video game, a twister game, and an electronic game of "Simon says." Also, the community dance team, which CC is a part of, performed between bingo games. They were super cute and did really well. My mom came and video taped the dances.

I've started to hang out with Aimer again. We went to dinner (tex-mex) on Tuesday. By the time our food came out we were pretty stuffed from eating all the chips and salsa. Saturday night we hung out with his friends at Jose's and then Zach's. Later we stopped by his place. Their dog (a pit bull) recently had puppies and they're adorable. One of the pups has a heart shaped patch on its rear, and so they named it Valentine.

Today, I saw an old friend from high school named Annette. She went to college at Reed which is in Oregon. It was really nice to see her especially because she went far away to college and has a similar mindset about wanting to venture outside her little circle.

Mixed Feelings

I emailed my Peace Corps placement officer to get a status update. He said the position I was nominated for has been filled and that they are looking for programs that start late spring/early summer.

Hmmm...how do I feel about that?

First, there was a wave of relief because that means I can work at the Municipal Court longer instead of abandoning them after two months.

However, this is quickly replaced with disappointment. How long can I really say that I plan on going to the Peace Corps? How long can I claim that I'm in a transition period before the realization hits that I've really moved back to Huntsville? My education and current status just don't seem to match up.

Then I think, "Is God trying to tell me something?" Am I meant to go to the Peace Corps? Should I be looking for something else? Is He trying to prepare for something specific in the future? These feelings of insecurity and uncertainty SUCK!!

I don't want to torment myself with these feelings, so I try to think of the positives and realities of the situation.
1. I'm going to have to start paying all my loans because I won't be able to defer them as early.
2. I'll be able to make it to the one year reunion if that's what we decide to do.
3. I could go to this volleyball tournament in Florida that Laura invited me to.
4. Maybe I'll actually consider getting a new battery for my phone so that I don't have to complain anymore about it being the worst phone ever.
5. I'll be around for my sisters' birthdays.
6. I'll have more time to research what kind of grad school I want to attend.

How much longer can the Peace Corps abuse me like this?